Sunday, December 25, 2011

Happy Christmas y'all!

Got these from Gemma's breeder this morning & just have to share!  I can't wait to pick her up in early January & get her home to love on her daily.

Monday, December 19, 2011

Latte Macchiato aka Gemma Kitteh

My year has been rough at best, and my husband was at his wit's end trying to figure out what to get me for Christmas this year.  He kept asking all kinds of questions, and picking at my brain in his quest to make me smile and help my year end on a happier note.

He has done so.  Thanks to a horse friend, who also has these insanely gorgeous Ragdoll cats, he has found the exact perfect gift for me...a Ragdoll kitten to be my companion and cuddle buddy.  She is just stunning and has the most incredibly beautiful blue eyes.  I can't wait for the next 3 weeks to pass by so I can bring her home to stay.  Oh, and she is a seal bi-color like her mama Sadie.

Presenting Gemma:

Monday, December 12, 2011

New (to me) Car

So, as previously discussed, the Durango has breathed its last & is finally gone, gone, gone.  Thank goodness y'all.  I'd have liked to have shot that thing just for kicks & giggles.  That left us with the VW, which is back at the shop as I type.  OY VEY!

Anyhow, long story made shorter, we went out to peruse cars over the weekend, and after finally going to the dealership I kept mentioning, we were told we qualified for some very decent cars.  I would change the color if I had a way, just to keep it honest, but oh my lanta, this thing is a keeper man!  It is loaded & drives like a beast.  Loving it.

It is a Nissan Murano SE, chardonnay in color, sunroof, Bose sound system w/ 6-CD in-dash load & surround sound speakers, V6 auto/manual, AWD, sidebag curtains plus the usual airbags, all-season floor mat in the cargo area w/ shade & net.  So if I can find a suitable pet barrier Suki can finally ride along w/ me occasionally.  Yeah!  There are more features, but I can't remember what they are presently, something like it automatically adjusts the weight distribution, braking power, AWD, and transmission as needed, etc., and so on.  I'm tickled plum pink is what I am.

Here it is...

Monday, December 5, 2011

Like An 80's Flashback

My dreams last night had me back in high school & it was wonderful.  All that youth, that flexibility, the stamina, the ability to do backflips, handstands, hang by my heels from steel bars.  WOW!  I don't miss big hair, parachute pants, or certain other things, but my gosh do I miss younger me.  She was strong, pain free, and had such spunk.

That green eyed, freckle faced girl with the hair that looked brown until the sunlight hit it, setting it on fire and letting it spark auburn.  I can't believe I hated that hair & those freckles.  What an idiot I was.  I thought so many wrong things.  Wouldn't it be lovely to go back in time and converse with our younger selves, to tell them not to worry so much, that they are amazing people, and to believe in themselves & hang in there?  I think it would rock.

I do miss 7-11 Super Big Gulps, being able to eat half a large pizza and not fear gaining any weight or having heartburn.  I miss the music.  I miss my friends.  Those crazy, fun, loyal, and awesome friends.  I'm still in touch with several of them and it's nice.  But they're so very far away, or rather I am.  Several of us are grandparents, or soon to be, and one of us adopted late in life, so is parenting a pre-schooler...and my goodness, what a cutie pie he is!

Butchie is a lawyer with his own practice, holds several degrees, including one in special education.  Squirrel is a cashier and a loving grandma.  Lizard works in computers for a huge firm back home, is a grandpa, and is fighting medical issues galore.  I'm back in college & also coming closer & closer to be a 1st time grandma.  I am so psyched about holding little Sora Riley for the very first time, whispering in her tiny seashell ear how amazing she is, how much she is loved, and how her Gigi believes she will do anything, be anything she wants to be.  How nothing and no one will stand in her way.

Getting to see her, hold her, say those things, teach her things I love to do, watch her grow & learn, become a toddler, a little girl, a teen, an amazing woman, all make days like today when walking hurts, okay.  She isn't even here yet and she is the wind beneath my wings, making me push upward & onward. I love you to the moon & back Sora Riley!

Saturday, December 3, 2011

I found my silver lining while composing this post!

I have been seriously feeling overwhelmed & bummed out.  Maxed out.  Worn out.  Worn down.  Run down.  It's bad.  It's the when it rains, it pours syndrome I think.  Our Dodge Durango went in for some repairs due to having hit a rather large deer.  Now we knew that the radiator was cracked, that there was some body damage, etc., but we did not expect engine damage, nor did the insurance adjuster/claims assessor dude.

Um yeah, so there was engine damage actually, and it was extensive, and after a big repair we picked it up only to break down on the way home, and a few miles from the house.  It was winched onto a flatbed trailer & hauled back down, and after several diagnostics were run, which are not cheap let me just get that out there, they tell us the engine is shot & cannot be saved.

Then there is the VW Cabrio, which has been in the shop for several weeks as well.  Oh, and the Durango was in for an entire month  mind  you.  They replaced the transmission, we picked it up, and the shaking & noise pissed me off.  It was much worse than when I took it in there.  Then I get it home & parked and then started puking.  The fumes coming off the engine made me sick & the smell of the burning was pretty intense.  Yeah, so guess where my car is now?  Yup, back in the freaking shop, and to the tune of another $400+ on top of the other $300+ we just paid a few days ago.  Not. Freaking. Happy. At. All.  OMFG!  Seriously I've just had it.  All of our savings is now gone with all the co-pays & expenses on these vehicles.

I worked so hard to build that up, to have something for the future, and to be able to move out of here.  Finally.  Now I wonder if I'll ever be able to do that.  I'm trying to come to terms with the fact that I may well be here in PA for a long time to come, and I'm not curling up in a fetal ball weeping hysterically, so that's good, I guess.

I was going to use some of my money in the savings to help one of my kids out by putting a transmission into the Civic I bought from my son.  He has a Jetta now & I bought the Civic for what he would have gotten at a salvage yard, so not bad.  There is a lot of new body work & things on it, the tires aren't bad, and it's in really good shape.  Just needs that tranny.  But now I have no money at all.  There is $15 in my checking account and all that's left in savings is what is needed to keep it active so they won't stick a ton of fees & charges on me for not having the minimum in there.  Oy!

Thanking my lucky stars I did my Christmas shopping early this year & that it is all finished up.  Seriously, I would not be able to hold on to my anger if I'd missed out on shopping for things for my kids and my mom.  I like to gift the people I love with things I think they're really going to like/love/appreciate and can use, etc.  Mom went with me again this year and added to what I've gotten them already, and so there is no doubt in my mind the 4 kids will like what they're getting, and my son-in-law too.  He is in the Navy now & has been away since Labor Day for boot camp & now training school.  I'm so proud of him for doing this, and even more proud of my daughter for being strong through it.  I can only imagine how hard it is to miss your husband like that, and being apart for their 1st anniversary, etc.  She is amazing to me.

Timmy & Beth & the get away car

Liv, Beth, Timmy & Kait

Beth & Timmy

Isn't she beautiful?  Not that they aren't all gorgeous, they are.  My kids take my breath away they are so beautiful in my opinion.  I know all moms say that, but they leave me in awe in so many, many ways.  All the time.  Tim, Beth, and Kait have gone down to the deep south & rebuilt after Katrina, they volunteer with youth in several ways, teach at church, and so on.  My son and the way he is there for his friends when they really don't have anyone else, Liv with her pregnancy & all she & little Sora have faced.  I am in love with my children & am so very blessed beyond measure to have them in my life.

Kait & Beth

Kait & Matty

My silly, beautiful girls!

Matt & Kait

Bethy & Kait

My niece Erika, Kait, me, Bethy & Liv

Sora Riley, my 1st granddaughter, due 2/4/12